Jingle jingle

you dream about doctors and black guys
a painful scar being healed and
your ability to talk about you inner things returned

you sleep sound and awake
walking through a flat almost ready to be decorated

the 'transit'-feeling returns and you feel as if something was about to happen to you...just now, it is happening and very soon you will know what it is and you feel focused you want to live..or even better you want to LIVE (with capital letters)and breath in.out.in.out

you get your hair cut. same style as it was some years ago...not because you would want to turn back but because you feel much calmer and smooth

maybe all of this is just about readiness.

im ready. we can go now.
would you join?