thinking about

YOU...uuuuu

and about how lucky i am to have unconditional love wrapping me up on cold winter nights

my sister waking me with tremblin limbs asking about bad spirits and for help
she climbs under the bedclothes with me and i hold her and half-dreaming tell her a tale about Marco the cunning thief i have read the other day and hope it will fill her mind with the sea and warmth and maybe a smile so that she can slowly drift into the miraulous world of dreams

i wake with my eyes hurting, the bed empty beside me
write to my brother in france to let him now that i care
kiss my rose and look out the window to watch the snow fall

and i start to think... and hum:

yesterday i saw the sun shinin',
and the leaves were fallin' down softly,
my cold hands needed a warm, warm touch,
and i was thinkin' about you.

here i am lookin' for signs of leaving,
you hold my hand, but do you really need me?
i guess it's time for me to let you go,
and i've been thinkin' about you,i've been thinkin' about you.

when you sail across the ocean waters,
and you reach the other side safely,
could you smile a little smile for me?
'cause i'll be thinkin' about you,
i'll be thinkin' about you,
i'll be thinkin' about you,
i'll be thinkin' about you.

(but at least i know'what am i to you' http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VnolNQUxzdo&feature=related)

and the most beautiful of all is that i dont think this is sadness
no,
i think it is just a soft kind of melancholy
accompanied with that small (insecure)smile
that lately has become my most special facial expression:)