Me and my babies

ehm.
i know....im an emotional roller-coaster and crazy-little-complicated and a drama queen...but depressed : no. actually i think missing E. is normal, so is being stirred by K. and whinging thet G. is not here to cuddle me.

anyways. yesterday i have come the mother of 8kids (all of them around 2 and a half) for 15minutes...and if all goes fine most of them will be my babies from next week..with many more to come. Luckily they all loved my red puppet(Freddy, the fox..ehm..named accidentally) and none of them cried. There was a little girl who tried to steal Freddy, but then she gave it back...and most of them were laughing like crazy when i started emitting funny sounds to attract attention. Wow, this job will be a perfect refill after all the emotional problems i will have to try and handle in the mornings. (those of others...my own things always spin out of control...but then when i want to regain control i chat with G. who totally ignores their size and depth=> therefore i get over them myself and then im back to normal....if i actually have a 'normal' self at all)

Today flatparty at G.'s little brother... high time. i have just started missing the erasmus feeling:) /plus my italian has come to a halt and i really cannot see how to push it any further./

Today is the birthday of K. ...mine is coming up in 7 days...the big 25.
well. im not married. not pregnant. i still live home.
but at least i have travelled around europe a lot and got to know a lot of pple and things.
i have learnt to enjoy things more and became braver that i thought i'd be. (like i'd go flying in a small plane and do sports that used to freak me out..even though most probably i will end up being this highly emotional cultual whirlwind and will continue to be restless...but that's fun.)
all in all. changes in me have brought with them changes in my priorities.
kids can wait.
im happy to be responsible for me.
then for me+1. and before any sort of multiplication i need to understand if the +1 likes funparks...if yes. we can both sit on the rollercoaster and while i give the soundeffects he'll try to hold me and slow down from time to time:)